I don't know.

I don't know. I dont know what I'm going to do next year. I don't know when I'm going to cut off my dreads. I don't know if I want to get married. I don't know if I'm going to vote. I don't know if I will get my masters. I don't know if I'm going to church next Sunday. I don't know how to get there. I don't know if I like living off campus better. I don't know if I will get a tattoo, go to that on campus event, send in my application, pay that bill, if I will buy that book, get that CD, if you can move off campus or move to another dorm. I don't know.

I don't have answers, I have questions. I don't need circumstantial evidence, I want Truth. I don't care if that theology makes you sound smarter, I want something that redefines/recreates/restructures my world.

People matter. Not political structures or consumerism. People. We the people. I don't know why I shop at wal-mart or forget to buy fair trade. I don't know why I forget to remember that people die every day from terrible, unfair situations like human trafficking or child labor or governmental terrorism or poverty. I don't know why I wasn't born into a different country or why I spend money on things I want when people have needs.

I am in a world of I don't knows but I don't know where else to be.