On Fearing and Understanding...

"Nothing in life is to be feared- it is only to be understood." - Marie Curie

I have this taped on my computer at work so that I see it every day. Because there are so many days when I am afraid of life and living it well. I am afraid to mess up. I am afraid of people reacting the wrong way or not letting me explain myself. I worry that I don't serve people enough- didn't help that student, can't make that parent happy. Failed at a project or didn't contribute to the success of my organization. Afraid of the future and what it isn't telling me and the things that I have to push through daily to be healthier and happier...

I sat down and told a friend with the deepest level of honesty I could manage-

I. am. terrified.
I. am. going. to. fail.

 She told me it was normal, that everyone feels this way. 

And I believe her- I really do. But until I can get through the fear part of it- I am working diligently towards the understanding part of things. The moment when I feel like it clicks. When my passions align more directly with what I am doing. When I find meaning and purpose of the lasting sort.

When nothing in my life is to be feared, but only understood. When I just move forward with confidence and know my place in the grand scheme of things.

I am really, really ready for that side of things.