Voice

I've really been struggling with my writing which is why I haven't posted in a while. It has something to do with this search for my own voice- a voice that isn't put through filters or the product of the voices of other people. My very own vocal chords, my very own brain spilling out onto canvases and computer screens. My voice taking ownership, fighting battles... doing whatever it takes to make it out of this thing not necessarily intact but absolutely myself.

I have so many people in my life who wouldn't want anything else for me. They want me to turn off filters and embrace who I am completely. And those are the people that I need most. The people who wouldn't be frightened by the idea of me losing my faith or losing my mind. Because they are able to see the bigger picture. They are able to handle my questions with grace, knowing that there aren't really a lot of answers but the beauty is not in finding answers but in asking questions.

So if you are one of these people, thank you. For conversations, for phone calls for letters and texts. Thank you for words.... something I am frustratingly unable to find. But the day that I do I will have people that truly listen.