Last Year, This Year

Last year was full of celebration. Last year was full of losing and gaining. Last year I experienced a community full of life. Last year I encountered the almost death of community. One of my closest friends got married and it was breath-taking and we danced. Last year I overcame death. I almost lost everything but I gained instead. Last year I took too much for granted. I watched three friends drive away to new adventures and my heart broke and celebrated at the same time. I made new friends and strengthened old ones. I changed my perspective on life and living it. I got hurt, I got healed. Last year I stopped defining myself by organizations. I was forgiven, I forgave. My best friend fell in love and it was beautiful. I found out what authentic relationship really looks like. I wrote letters and stories and painted pictures. Last year I discovered the power of confession. I grew more than all of my years combined. I worked in an office doing the things I love. I lost the ability to put people on pedestals. Last year I loved and I was loved.

This year I am going to take chances. Fight for good things. Live. Tell people what I am thinking and take on new challenges. I am going to (finally) graduate college. I am going to write more and hope often. This year I am going to embrace change. I am going to appreciate people. I am going to cultivate passions. This year I am going to love and I am going to be loved.