Orbiting

I feel a million miles away orbiting around some strange planet. Institutions that I keep blindly putting my faith in seem to be doing a lot more damage than good. But instead of being disheartened I am trying to shift my perspective. Disconnecting. Not in a bitter way, but in a way that has come with my years of wisdom in this arena.

Vague, I know. But I am not here to slander anything. I am here to speak about life and love. Even when it feels more like discouragement and death around me.

Self. Awareness. Aware of the self that I am and the self that I am becoming. The me I am now and the me that comes next. I am pulling myself out of the context of anything I have placed my sense of value in. Does that make sense? To figure out that I am okay if I'm not wearing that jersey or doing that project or being that person for other people. I am intrinsic. I am real. And realness requires me to sometimes orbit and disconnect so that I can find the much more important things to invest myself in, the people that have always mattered so much more...

So I'm learning something and that is good.