Potential vs Kinetic

Let's talk about potential like they talk about in science classes. Potential can become kinetic. Thought can become action. We are subjects of the next moment/decision. Move forward, exact motion. Encounter emotion. Or otherwise shut down and refuse to keep going. Turn inward and create a cocoon of refusal. You can't be hurt this way... but you also will find few victories, few chances to feel alive.

We come to this precipice more than once in our lives. Standing on that cliff, toeing the edge and wrapping your arms around your form. But they say forms are a matter of function. And I believe that wired very directly into our limbs, synapses and cortexes is the necessity of forward motion. And when we stop responding to this, we encounter the kinds of discontent and disconnect that slowly but surely lead us into some kind of darkness. So it is the light that pulls us over the edge of the cliff into the next part of being alive and encountering change.

I sit inside this room. Creaking floor boards, drips echoing. Alone? No. Never. Never alone. The kinetic inside of me calls out to the other Thing in the room. Do. Go. Reach out or reach inward and like electricity running in coils I feel the connect as the Who inside of me pulls me away from what can only be called death. It is true that I am constantly fighting the worst version of myself. And I am realizing today and every day for a long time now that it is the difference between potential and kinetic. It is the difference between sitting and jumping off of that cliff.

I jump. I am kinetic.